My Fibromyalgia will not go away

My Fibromyalgia will not go away, 

so is there no way that I could ever come close to being happy…?

But still I want to have the ability to maintain a positive attitude, despite the challenges that I face on a daily basis. I need to work to continue to stay positive, because I know the consequences of not doing so. I don’t want to stay stuck in a very dark place full of depression and negativity. I want to become —a person who not only lives with pain and disability but who also has a hopeful outlook.

Will I ever be able to communicate fully the horror of that place where I go to, the depression, the pain that never ends?

When a person lives with this type of chronic pain and disability, it can often seem like a complete nervous breakdown is only seconds away.

As long as I can stay a split second ahead of the madness, frustration, fear, anger, and every other emotion that living with chronic illness often invokes, I know that I’ll be okay. I also know that if I make a wrong turn anywhere along my thought process, that if I focus on the negative rather than on the positive for just one second too long, then I will quickly become overwhelmed and start to fall behind.

When I reach this point, I stop living with Fibromyalgia and instead start struggling with Fibromyalgia, this is something that I definitely do not want to do anymore.

I must try to stay positive, I want to be able to more easily face and accept my reality. Many people tell me that they think maintaining a positive attitude means ignoring anything and everything related to their illnesses, that the “bad” stuff has to go. I cannot find such a statement further from the truth. For me, a positive attitude does not mean that I hope my pain goes away; it means that I hope to be able to cope with this pain even better. It means that I want to be happy with my life, exactly as it is.

My Fibromyalgia will not go away, so to stay positive means that no matter how much it seems like everything is going wrong, I will try to find something that is going right. In the end, it is finding my own positive attitude In order to continue moving forward, especially during those moments when it feels like my world is falling apart. I have to figure out new ways to implement a positive outlook,even—on those days when I feel like just giving up.